i wish i could post pictures on this thing. damnit.

I have an itch to get back on a stage somewhere, somehow.

theyre doing Kiss Me, Kate at UD this spring. auditions are being held the week i get back. I also have Vagina in March, I think? I don't even know when the show is.

somethings gnawing at my stomach, taunting and whispering to me with: college isn't like high school, you jerk. you'll never get a worthwhile part in this musical if you try out, if even a part at all. its much easier to be "talented" in a class of two hundred than forty-five hundred. do you have any idea how many people are gonna be at the auditions? people that have been singing and acting way longer than you are, that have been in dozens of shows ever since elementary school when you've only been in one measly, poorly put-together, poorly-funded play? people that will make you look like the amateur that you are, grind your face in the dirt? shit, you're gonna choke!

this semester is probably gonna be harder than the last, seeing that im taking a more advanced chem and *gulp* calculus (such a dirty word, calculus). i don't even know if i could handle the workload combined with all the demands of a play and i need a higher GPA this semester than the one i got last semester.

i'm gonna work my patootie off, harder than before. i'm gonna get a tutor if im having trouble with math. i'm gonna do practice examples every night till i get them right. i'm gonna write the best damn english papers and re-learn all the spanish back. and by god, i will get that damn 3.7!!!

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What band/artist have you been playing the most this month?
Different Broadway show soundtracks: Annie Get Your Gun, Rent, Annie, Chicago, Gypsy, Jesus Christ Superstar, etc...

What was the last CD you bought?
The Chicago motion picture musical soundtrack and the rent Original Broadway Cast recording Soundtrack

Do you like mix tapes/CDs?
Yup, theyre the only kind of cd's I burn

What genres of music do you most enjoy?
anything and everything

What song/album/artist do you play in the bath?
I tke in my Broadway stuff and sing along to it

Name a band/song that is special to you, and explain why: "I will Come To You" By Hanson bc whenever I hear it, I feel like I'm 13 again and thats a beautiful thing to feel. "I Miss You" by Incubus because it's mine and eric's song, along with "I'll Cover You" from Rent and other things. "Knock Three Times" because it reminds me of car rides to atlantic city.

What song never fails to make you cry? "Butterfly Kisses" by Bob Carlisle

If you could go on stage with anyone + duet with them; who would it be, what song would you sing, and why? Jesus Christ, where to begin...it has to be something fun...I'd have to say "Walk This Way" with Aerosmith because I was so jealous of Britney when I watched the Superbowl Halftime show.

Does your style match your music taste? I guess so...I wear a lot of different styles, just like i like a lot of different types of music.

What band/song could you never get bored of? These are the songs I will listen to any time of day, and can listen to over and over and over again and not get sick of them.
"You Are My Special Angel" - Bobby Vinton
"I Miss You " - Incubus
"Funny Hubby" - Chicago
"Finale" - Rent
"At Last" - Etta James

List six bands + a song of theirs that you love (in no particular order):
1 - LifeHouse - breathing
2 - Weezer - Butterfly
3 - Puddle of Mudd - she hates me (i know, i know...)
4 - Incubus - Echo
5 - Boston - Cool The Engines
6 - Coldplay - Yellow

If you had a band - what would you call them and what would be your role? no idea what I would call them but I'd be the singer

Have you ever been in love with a song/band? Yes.

Is there any song that you just can't bare to listen to because of the memories?
(if so, what + why) "last Kiss" by eddie vedder because it reminds me of karen

1) Last dream: last night about me sneaking over erics house whenever i wasnt supposed to be there and getting caught
2) Last car ride: home from best buy and aunt carols house
3) Last kiss: about a half hour ago when eric left
4) Last person you kissed: eric
5) Last good cry: last week...i forget why
6) Last Missing Library Book: lol something that had to do with my serial killer senior project
7) Last movie seen: Chicago
8) Last Book Read: The Diary of Anne Frank
9) Last curse word uttered: Shit
10) Last beverage drank: water..is that even a beverage?
11) Last Food consumed: raviolis..for breakfast. heh heh
12) Last Crush: eric
13) Last phone call: melissa
14) Last TV show watched: osbournes
15) Last Item Bought: two cd's last night
16) Last time showered: this morning
17) Last shoes worn: sneakers from when i was exercising this morning
18) Last CD played: Chicago soundtrack
19) Last MP3 Downloaded: some andrea bocelli
20) Last annoyance: mickey wont leave me alone!
21) Last disappointment: no idea
22) Last soda drank: diet coke
23) Last thing written: heh?
24) Last key used: backspace
25) Last word spoken: "mine" - the last word of "Funny Hubby
26) Last trip to the bathroom: 40 minutes ago when eric was throwing up in my toilet
27) Last sleep: last night
28) Last IM: yrmyheartthrob
29) Last song you listened to: "when youre good to mama" - chicago
30) Last time you yelled at someone: before at mickie31) Last weird encounter: Avril.
32) Last Store Shopped at: best buy
33) Last ice cream eaten: i havent had icve cream in soo long..probably cookie dough
34) Last time amused: before
35) Last time wanting to die: last july
36) Last time in love: now
37) Last time hugged: saying goodbye to eric
38) Last time kissed on the cheek: ditto
39) Last time humped: lolol
40) Last time scolded: a few days ago for answering back
41) Last time resentful: never
42) Last chair sat in: THIS ONE
43) Last lipstick used: clinique..i forget its name
44) Last underwear worn: blue leopard thong, lol
45) Last bra worn: dark blue satin
46) Last shirt worn: the one i exercised in
47) Last class attended: haha...december 12th
48) Last Final taken: december 20
49) Last time dancing: this morning
50) Last poster looked at: moulin rouge
51) Last concert attended: paul mccartney baby!!!
52) Last webpage visited: quizilla.com

i honestly dont know why, but i cant seem to sleep well lately. ill wake up earlier than i need to in the morning, still tired, and i wont be able to fall back asleep and ill just lay there forever trying to. its the most frustrating thing.

people are going back to school already and i still have a little less than a month to go. its the weirdest thing, but i'm so glad i have this long break.

now, i am in no way a justin timberlake fan, but i must say: he looks mighty fine on the cover of the latest rolling stone. like, i don't want to admit it, but damn. he. looks. good.

everyone go see Chicago. Go see it now. Go go goooooo.

what is currently bugging the shit out of me: Joey Fatone was in Rent as Mark Cohen and now Kevin Richardson is cast in Chicago as Billy Flynn (yet the surprising, heartening thing about this is that nobody seems to care). a movie-version of the play is now in theatres.

i hate how now that some big piece of theatre-related entertainment goes mainstream, for ten seconds, everyone and their mother thinks theatre is cool.

...tis just another trend of the week.

Resolutions:
1. Exercise at least three times a week
2. Cut down on junk food (well, at least for a while) and eat at a salad every day.
3. Read for at least one hour a day.
4. See as many Broadway shows as I can.
5. Make a SHITLOAD of money!!!!!
6. Write something at least six times a week.
7. Subscribe to a magazine that publishes some sort of medical/health-related material, albeit be accurate, informative and intriguing.

Santa has brung:
1. my beautiful, beloved, and oh-so-coveted black nylon kate spade bag. its like guilt wrapped up in the form of the perfect purse.
2. Chance perfume by Chanel and the lotion that goes with it
3. a beautiful ring from Eric among other things :)
4. beautiful white sapphire earrings from my daddy
5. loads of money and gift certificates

the sucky thing about christmas this year: eric wasn't there

surprisingly, new years eve...rocked...this year. I actually had a genuine good time.

Re-reading: The Diary of Anne Frank and A Wrinkle in Time: two oldies but goodies. I'm so angry that I left the books that I bought the day I went home in my dorm. I had bought two Wally Lamb novels: I Know This Much Is True and She's Come Undone as well as Toni Morrison's Paradise, the only book she's penned that I haven't read yet. Three books in near-perfect condition all for eleven dollars - i love vintage bookstores! My novel collection is going to be colossal by the end of this year.

my goal for the next month that I have off is to read an introductory anatomy book from start to finish.

Oy, I forgot! I saw Rent again, and it was just as fabulous as the first time.

that's all for now. i'll be blogging more often again because i'm home! yay!